My Testimony

Looking back at everything I've been through , I feel a multitude of things . Shame, regret, thankful, blessed and more than anything, I feel loved . God was in my life at every scene whether I acknowledged it or not . I believe he exists because I exist. I know this may sound  cliche' but I should be dead right now . When I was 4 years old , laying up in the hospital dying slowly with cancer and DOCTORS ( people that are super smart and went to school for like a lot of years ) said there was nothing they could do I was a goner , HE was there . When I got depressed , lost all hope in everything and tried to put an end to my misery , HE was there . When every relationship I have ever known had failed , whether it was my parents , my husband , my friends or myself and all I could do was get on my knees and cry out to him, yep you guessed it HE was there . Don't get me wrong , I was a child that was raised in the church . I memorized verses , sang in the choir , and even taught Sabbath school for the younger ones . I always know of His existence just really didn't understand His purpose . Only now at 20 3/4 do I fully comprehend His purpose ... and mine . It's been quite a journey but it's not over yet . I know when life gets me down and I get lost he'll be waiting right around the corner waiting for me to find him again.